Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
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Ονειροφαντασία
Κ. Ξενάκης

Κάποιοι παλιοί συμμαθητές κανονίζουν ένα ταξίδι στη... Σαουδική Αραβία. 
Σκέφτομαι ότι είναι ακόμα άνοιξη και δεν θα κάνει πολύ ζέστη. 
Δίνουν οδηγίες για το πού θα πρέπει να συναντηθούμε για να πάμε στο αεροδρόμιο. Η συνάντηση θα λάβει χώρα νωρίς το πρωί.
Σκέφτομαι αν θα μπορέσω να πάρω μαζί μου το 'Ζ'. Και αν το εντοπίσουν; 
Επίσης, θα μπορέσω να επισκεφτώ τη Μέκκα; Δεν είμαι μουσουλμάνος, ωστόσο θα μπορούσα να μεταμφιεστώ. Και αν με εντοπίσουν; Μπορεί να βρεθώ στη φυλακή, με ποιος ξέρει τί είδους κόσμο και υπό άσχημες συνθήκες. Θα το αντέξω;

Με απασχολεί πολύ το πώς θα βρεθώ στο σημείο συνάντησης. Κοιτώ το χάρτη. 
Εν τω μεταξύ αρχίζω να έχω αμφιβολίες για το ταξίδι' θα μού αρέσει η παρέα; 
Ξεκινώ για να φτάσω στον προορισμό μου. Βρίσκομαι ξαφνικά στη Ν., έξω από το σπίτι. Συναντώ ένα αυτοκίνητο το οποίο είναι πολύ μικρό, σχεδόν δεν χωράω. Ένα κενό ακολουθεί...
Τελικά δεν πηγαίνω στο ταξίδι, και η Α με ψέγει για αυτό. Βρίσκομαι σε ένα καφέ με ένα άλλο συμμαθητή, τον Β, και συζητάμε. Αργότερα συναντώ τα παιδιά που θα έπρεπε να είναι στην πτήση τέτοια ώρα... δεν έφυγαν τελικά;
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strange dreams again.
 A's flirt called me to complain about him. She has shown her interest to him, and I know he is interested in her, but he hasn't visited her since he left...

Then, I receive a phone call from abroad. A guy who speaks both English and Greek is on the other side of the line. It's (probably) about a job offer. We do some introductory talk, he asks me why I left England. The dream ends...
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whatever comes to my mind / spare thoughts

strange dream to see last night. 

me being part of a large group visiting a monastery.
suddenly the patriarch of the orthodox church appears. he appeared younger than he actually is, and with a strange aura... not very warm. 
he was too tall; I noticed that his feet didn't touch the ground... indeed, he was like these tall ξυλοποδαρους guys whose legs have wooden extentions...

elsewhere, 
reading some interesting articles on philosophy, science, their relation and their limitations.

Can science explain everything, from planetary systems to human behaviour to arts and history?
It is refreshing to notice that some think not. There seem to be limits to what humans can know...
Whether such agnosticism is liberating or restrictive is rather a matter of perspective, although I would probably side with the former.
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Dream Caused by the Flight of a Bee Around
a Pomegranate a Second Before Awakening 
Salvador Dali, 1944


Unconsciousness break-ins

A hazy collage of moving images centering on my ex's.

Being to a student Hall party; a big, dark hall, wih lots of people. It's dirty, and there are a few big rooms. Many people, many girls. Loud music coming out of the main hall. The smell of drugs is pervasive. I mention it to my company - I don't know/ remember who this person is. 
I spot my latest ex. She passes by me non stop, a hazy smile on her face, rather indifferent and in a hurry. My company mentions she got slim, she is quite pretty. I think I preffered her the way she was before; she was slim already. I regret she doesn't care. 

More memories of my dreams unfold...

We are at a cafe (?), me and some male company, 3-4 more persons. A group of people sits close to us, it's mostly girls. No company has ordered yet. Somehow I open a conversation with one of the girls. Her company moves to another table, further away from us. She stays with me. There is a guy in her company. Finally her company comes to our table and they become a big group. I and the girl stay on a separate table, close to the group. 
A couple of her girlfriends is in our table; then they move to the group. The girl says she is working long hours. I realise she is rather plump, and doesn't really care about her appearance. I get disappointed that my enthusiasm fades and that my urge to do something is left unsatisfied - again.

I am at a beach, with my brother (?) and my two cousins I met yesterday. It is not sunny, nor hot. There is not enough space, but we manage to get comfortable.

I am at Nafpaktos, close to grandpa's house. I hear my aunt coming from further away. She is shouting helplessly, asking for help. I am rushing towards her. I find out she is not in danger (?).

I am on a highway, probably in the US, with a group of people I haven't met before. They are middle-aged. The guy that is in the same car with me is bearded. They are somehow my new colleagues, and we are moving to our working site (?). 

I am at Nafpaktos again. I have somehow taken on my new business duties. I go down the road that leads from my house to the city. I carefully check the sideways. Towards the end of the road there is a group of two guys. One of them is holding a hose and is watering the street. I recognise him. He is an unlikable person that I know; I used to rent a room at his house in London. I turn back and try not to be recognised. I think he does recognise me, but the guy he is conversing with doesn't let him go.
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Γκραντίβα, μία φαντασία #2
George Grosz: Metropolis, 1916-1917

Στο σπίτι ενός πελάτη, στο οποίο δεν έχω ξαναβρεθεί. 

Είναι στο τελευταίο όροφο μίας πολυόροφης πολυκατοικίας στη γειτονιά μου. Έχει ένα τεράστιο μπαλκόνι.

Εξηγώ σε μία κοπέλα (μέσα στο ασανσέρ;) πόσο καλό είναι αυτό, καθώς το σπίτι απολαμβάνει μία υπέροχη θέα, και δεν είναι κλεισμένο από άλλες πολυκατοικίες. Συζητούμε για την οροφή του κτιρίου, και σχολιάζουμε κάτι για το πως θα είναι το καλοκαίρι με την έντονη ηλιοφάνεια.

Σε ένα άλλο σπίτι, μάλλον το δικό μου.
Είναι πολύ μικρό και ηλιόλουστο.
Συγκατοικώ με άλλα άτομα. Σίγουρα με δύο κοπέλες.
Κάποια στιγμή οι συγγενείς μίας κοπέλας έρχονται να μείνουν μαζί μας. Όλοι άντρες.
Το σπίτι είναι πολύ μικρό και δεν χωράμε.
Φοβάμαι για τα χρήματα μου και τα κρατώ πανω μου.

Φλερτάρω με τη μία κοπέλα. Είναι ξανθιά και όμορφη. Είναι από το εξωτερικό, αν και δεν το καταλαβαίνεις με την πρώτη ματιά. Αισθάνομαι το θερμό σώμα της. Όμως δεν ενδίδει και το φλερτ αποτυχαίνει.
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Γκραντίβα, μία φαντασία #1

What I remember most clearly is that I was in Sheffield, the city I spent I year at as a post-graduate student back in 2005-6.

I got there with some family members and some people I don't remember clearly right now.

We stayed at a two-storey house. We stayed at the ground floor, while the house owner occupied the first floor.

What is rather strange is that the house didn't resemble any place I have stayed at till now. It was a detached house, in the middle of a piece of land; rather like american suburban houses we see in films.

What is also strange is that the house owner was a guy that had rented me a room in his flat when I was in London, a quite common practise there. 
He is not a person I have fond memories of; rather anti-social, intrusive and quite strange. I remember him staring to us from his window while arriving, as he would probably do when I was renting in his house. I also urged my flatmates to keep quiet so to avoid problems, since there were very noisy. I tried to avoid contact with him, although my mother was quite sympathetic towards him. 

I remember going through the city with my family by car, and showing them around the strong medieval fortifications of the city. This is rather strange too; Sheffield is a post-industrial city with poor, if any, medieval roots.

In the midst of all that I remember being in London, in a huge store full of children's games.

I also remember walking around Sheffield with another dark-skinned guy, not a familiar face. The sky was blue, and at some point we arrived at an archaeological site. There was a label at the corner of that fenced piece of land, bearing ancient Greek/ Byzantine alphabet. 

I got quite excited, and I said to my co-walker and a group of other people standing next to me that this was evidence of the reach of the Roman Empire and Hellenism, at the point when Constantine the Great transfered the capital from Rome to Constantinople (when I was in York, I remember coming across Constantine's statue outside the huge Cathendral of York, evidence for me of the reach of Hellenism in so distant lands).

Another chapter of my dreams follows.
I was in a multistorey building, presummably in Sheffield. I met there another girl, I remember her being rather obese. She said she was from Slovakia. We were about to sleep together, but for some unspecified reson we didn't go on. I think her flatmate came around.

Anyway, next thing I remember is her crying about life in the UK. What she was complaining for was that she could not get a proper house where she could have a family, as I do remember rents were too expensive in the UK.

Next thing was UK police arresting me. A policeman first approached me, hit me and stole 300 euros I had on me -oh, I just remembered I had got these money from a customer, an old schoolmate living down the road in Athens. When I got to his house to get the money, I met a huge, noisy family. I was surprised and told him that that was rather unusual for me.

Anyway, the policeman was rather brutal. Another policeman, more civilised, came over. I remember being still at the multistorey building I was with that girl. The policemen for some reason knocked the door of the next flat, where a group of dark-skinned Asians lived. I didn't approve of their behaivour but didn't say anything.

Anyway, the arrest and interrogation was probably related to a girl living next door that my brother dated. I told them I was sure about my brother's innocence and that it was probably the girl that got him into trouble. It should have been somethng related to drugs I think.

Anyway, I remember I didn't want to stay in the UK for much longer, and asked my mom to leave as soon as possible. However, my mom had a good time, and didn't look like she would be leaving any time soon.